Do you ever have those moments?

Well its another day in my life. Really mine is no different then the millions before me. I have problems in my life just like you. We all feel so alone, but we are not. We are together in this lonely world. Most of us are looking for the same thing. A man or woman to hold and call our own. We want the love to feel new fifty years into it. Some of us want children some don't, but our love would want the dame things. We all want someone to make us laugh. Someone to make us smile no matter how sad the world looks. The Irish say it is friendship, love and loyalty. These are the things to make any relationship work.
Us girls are raised believing those sappy movies we all watch. You know the ones, were the man is a romantic heart throb, the girl has the perfect body. Does anyone have anything even close to that? A good man who works hard to make a good honest living. He comes home from times to time with an arm full of my favorite flowers. He tells me he is so in love with me and how he can't understand how he ever lived with out me. He kisses me good bye everyday before he lives for work. Our friends all love each other. The boys play cards or pool or something. And the girls get together for martiny night (or margaritas). He takes me out dancing, maybe he likes to dance maybe he doesn't, but he knows how much I love it, so he does it for me.
I make his favorite meal, and I even try to do it just the way him mom cooked it. He helps keep the house clean, and we share in the chores. He loves my children, and if he has any I love them too. I would even watch sports for this man.

I don't think this guy is perfect, I am not that foolish, I just think he is perfect for me. That is who I want. I feel everyone should find this person. I want my Imzadi.
Oh, Imzadi is a silly little name you might not know. But I bet you have experienced something close. Have you ever had that feeling when you love someone so much that saying "I love you" just isn't enough? Not even close? They are more then your soul mate, your beloved, your everything.... This is your Imzadi. We all have one. Only one. You might never even get to be with him or her. But they are out there. He is who I am searching for. He is who I will wait til my death for.
As a young foolish girl, first learning to love I made standards for myself that were lost in time. I was once strong and in control of my future. At some point I lost her. I let her go. Lately I have gotten a glimpse of her from across the room. I am going to get her back. I can get myself back. Not just for myself but my children. I have a daughter who is 12. I want her to see her mother as a person to look up to. I want her to say to herself, " I want to be like my mom." How great that would be.

One day I will have my cake and eat it too!