ok, So I have given you a little of me in the past. But let us come a little closer to the me we know today. Let us go back to July.



Its mid July and I am living a normal life. I live with my husband of 13 years, our two great girls, ages 12 and 7, and my husband's parents. We have been in thw same house with them for ten years. I am not the happiest I have ever been but I know it will get better. Sooner or later it will get better. My Birthday was comming up in Aug. but we never really had much money to do anything. We came into a couple extra dollars and I got excited. I decided what I wanted for my birthday was to go out to the restrant that I like, see a movie and stay at a hotel with my husband and give him all the sex he would want. But he didn't seem as excited about this as I was. He tried to convince me to do a couple other things before he said "why don't you go home to California to see your family, you've haven't been home in a couple years?" I jumped up and gave him a big hug and was so excited that he loved me this much. I got on the computer right away before he changed his mind. A week later he said he want to go up north with a friend of his.

I was fine wiht this and asked no questions. It wasn't something he had really done before but I didn't think twice about it. I took my daughter to a slumber party and I went to work. When I left work I called my daughter to say good night but she didn't answer the cell phone we got her. Normally I was the one who would get all upset for her to not have it on her, but I decided that I was going to be extra nice. I went home and got on the computer and saw that one of her friends that were at the party was on the computer. And she sent me a message. "I'm sorry to hear about your divorce."

As you can imagine I was shocked. Try to stry with me on what was comming, it moved very fast.

So I told her I am not getting a divorce. She told me that my daughter told her other wise and that my daughter told her that she would live with her father. So I told her that I wasnted to talk to my daughter, but she told me that my daughter, lets call her Lisa, was not at the party any more. Lisa was now at her boyfriend's house. Lisa had called her dad and was given premission to go. So now I am going crazy. I don't have a number to reach my daughter. And I start calling my husband. I start yelling at him about what is being said and then getting all sorts of stories. There is a big fight about the fact that he really did say it was ok for her to stay at her boyfriend's house as well as told her not to tell me about it. He thought that I wouldn't know about it. Of corse he thought that I wasn't picking her up til after Church on Sunday, so really she was going to stay there for two days.



When he finally got home the next night. Cause he was in no hurry to talk about what was happening. He didn't care that I was at home not knowing if my marriage was over or not. All he cared about was himself. And of course the girl of 28 that he spent the night with. Of course he lied about that for a few days. Then he told me the truth. and two days later he started lieing about it again. As if I was going to forget that he said it. Anyway when he got home all he said is, "I am done." after all that we had gone through. This was the ending I got.